On what saved me.

Joining in on another syncroblog this morning. What is saving your life? With the lovely Sarah Bessey. You should check it out and write your part!!

Five years I waited for you my sweet baby, and although I spend these days breaking a sweat to keep up to you, I am forever thankful when I hold you in arms and you rest your hundredth percentile head on my shoulder. The last nineteen months have flown by at a speed that makes my head spin, but when you wake in the morning and we snuggle in my bed with you beloved bottle, time stands still. As you twirl your hair in your chubby little fingers with eyes half open, I breathe in your Ollie goodness.

You are a conquerer. You spent the entire week trying to build the upper body strength to pull yourselves up on kitchen chairs. I saw the pride in your eyes, when I discovered you on top of the kitchen table, in that same moment my heart stopped. Could you please stop climbing everything? Mom has enough grey hair.

You are an explorer. I watch the world through your eyes, I hear new words from your sweet little mouth everyday, and what you don’t know, you manage to string together a line of jibberish I could never imitate. I love how you sing along with music, and throw down your dance moves. They make my toes curl. Every morning you systematically check for every cupboard I left unlock and waste no time finding the most dangerous thing to carry through the house. I can’t take my eyes off you, and I don’t really want to.

You are a scholar. When you come to me with a book and back up into my lap to discover the wonders on every page, pointing out the words you have learned discovering new things on every page, I wonder at the wonder of you. In a house with a busy nine year old and forty year old, it is a life line to have eager ears that really listen to me. Not that your brother never listens, I just have to corner him.

You are grace. From that moment I discovered I held you in my womb, surprise and delight. I jumped and clapped with my friend tears falling down my face. You arrival from heaven, healed an empty part of me. It filled a place long waiting in our family. You arrived a son and brother. An answer to fervent prayer.

You saved me. While everyday I fight to keep you alive while you try to conquer the world by climbing everything in sight, I am ever grateful by you saving my life. You filled a place in my heart that was dark with disappointment from infertility. I would do it all again for you. Everyday, you save my life.